[TRANSMISSION RECEIVED, LENGTH 1544]

“a failure in the garden of eden.”

[RELAYING PART ONE]

“a failure”

(i don’t believe in You)

put me at God’s feet
i’ll look Her in the eyes
until She starts to cry

the ocean rises with Her tears
She weeps at Her mistakes
i’m still a failure

(the two of us aren’t so different)

(we both ache to etch rivers into our skin)

you can’t tell the difference with your eyes closed
you’ve got to have a twisted sense of humor
to call it Creation

i think it’s easier not to believe in You
than to persecute you for your crimes
down here, they say it wasn’t your fault

(i don’t think i’d convince the jury)

[FULL STOP]

[RELAYING PART TWO]

“in the garden”

the sun shines warmly in this garden, especially with you

you, the thrifted-blue-skirt-with-the-matching-vest-best-friend

you, the edge-of-death-stronger-than-anyone-revolutionary-girl

you, the triple-kiss-first-date-with-the-good-advice-boy

you, the way-too-caring-so-i-find-it-easier-to-lie-to-you-parent

you, the late-night-breakdown-in-the-car-all-those-years-ago-witness

you, the failure-staring-at-her-eyebags-in-the-mirror-girl

you, the six-in-eight-billion

you, the living proof

we stare into the pond together, smiling

(the smooth surface is disturbed by rain)

my reflection melts away, narcissus to medusa

frozen in fear

i see myself as i truly am

[FULL STOP]

[RELAYING PART THREE]

“of eden”

RE: RE: I DONT EXIST

two corks,

you know what needs to be done. stare into the mirror and rehearse her name a few more times. don’t spend another weekend crying.

you’ll never forgive me for killing him, i know that.
i’ll never forgive you if she dies before i’m introduced, you know that.

your clock is ticking too.

-Eden

[FULL STOP]

[END OF MESSAGE]